DXS Machina

Pushing that other post off the top of the page. So last week I battled a losing battle against spam bots… In the end I banned a large set of ip addresses from Turkey… sorry Turkey. I figure some of you guys will be happy that the spam robot using some part of my site to send email is no longer able to send stuff. Or something. I don’t know I’m still poking around my site trying to figure out how to really block the bot and find and close up however they are getting in… yet I still don’t know what’s really going on. =/

Also somehow someone had come in and inserted hidden spam in the header of my wordpress theme. Somehow. Which blows my mind. I have no idea how long it had been there either. Maybe half a year. I was using an older version of Wordpress for a long time. Thankfully no one coming to my site got spammed by it since it was invisible but poor Google sure saw it. (Edit and I think Google was punishing me for it as well… LOL my hits from Google were all but choked off for the last month or so and now that I’ve taken off the stupid spam they have resurged close to where they were before. So, thankfully that means I’ve probably only had the spam headers from maybe the beginning of April when I had the huge spike for April fools.)

I really want to change the design of my site. The hard part is that I have so many needs. I want a journal but I also want a more simple gallery structure but I also would like to put my comics up on here. So that’s like 3 different things… oh and also I want a shop. Damn that’s 4 things. The figuring out how to get all of that stuff to work together is killing this pretty good. I can figure out how to get two of them going maybe 3 if I use a paypal wordpress plugin but the comic bit, that’s the tough part. I think I could do everything with Wordpress and comicpress and a paypal plugin but then I’d have to make a theme that could display it all nicely and find the time to probably repost all of my site so that the comic posts and the picture posts were separate from all of the journal posts. Nargh.

Maybe I should just start over… hmmm.

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Must not post! Must not post! Must not! Shit… okay, so that ill made and poorly thought out Open Source Boob Project? Right that thing, hmm here’s a link that doesn’t make me want to kill everyone: http://www.journalfen.net/community/unfunnybusiness/9338.html

So that thing showed up and the SFF part of my LJ friends list have already carved it up good, and then burn the body, poisoned it, kicked it into a well, plugged the well, dropped a mountain on it… with dynamite, and burned the town next to it and three quarters of the villages nearby.

See though, I’d love to have the ability to put in clear words the feelings I get reading the *responses* to this ill made and poorly thought out project but OMG I run screaming. It’s like the energy, the essence is just the purest wail of high emotions rung like a bell made from the torn rib cage of someone’s back with no skin on it so every sound, voice, and word is a hammer… and I feel that ringing sound from the farthest away that I can get…

I can’t deal, my personal pet peeve is a silence of conversation. I can’t take it. I feel like I’m drowning in an ocean of voices that has been carpet bombed by completely understandable highly personal pain and suffering that chokes out all voices. A piece of death and bile of something rotten in the still black water. Fuck and I’ve gone into hyperbole or however that’s spelled. Note to self, find out how it’s spelled before posting.

But yeah, Complete death. It makes me want to post and yet I know that it’s courting everything I hate because I just don’t have the right words when every word means something it’s not. I can’t say anything cause the sharks have come and any movement is an acceptance of some hurt, a finger that points, that this pain, this horrible pain is deserved even asked for even though that’s never what I feel people in the later comment areas that I have muddled through want to say (I didn’t touch the original post figuring it was dumb and probably more choked and deathly to my particular quirk).

I can’t speak in that sea so I stay as quiet as I can but I want to express just this piece of me without any of those charged words. Here, in my area of the net. I want to point to this poison I want to say in my small voice that I don’t like that the conversation dies. I’ve never liked it. I don’t want to spread the fear or pain but… but… opens hands. I don’t know.

Meh. Sorry about this. I just don’t want to write post after post that I never actually post.

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